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Mar 22Liked by Sarah Einstein

I feel this post so very deeply! Except that that my mother is still living, she just cannot speak. 😞 She has aphasia. And at first, it was just that she couldn't get the words she wanted from her brain to her mouth. But she still has a voice and when she tries hard enough she could express exactly what she wanted to say. But now that is gone and it left so quickly that my siblings and I are just shocked! I'm impressed by my Dad, while he can get frustrated with her, he just knows what she is trying to communicate better than the rest of us. God bless him!

At first, not hearing her voice didn't bother me very much. I had it in my head from a lot of fights we've had and I was almost grateful not to be having those fights anymore. But then my 10 year old daughter said she couldn't remember what Grandmas voice sounded like and asked if I had anything she could listen to. And I don't. And now it's devastating to me. Not because I don't have it to hear, but because Sophia doesn't have it. And my 8 year old Gianna doesnt have it. The relationships kids have with their grandparents is so important

And while on the subject of grandparents, I'm fortunate to have a video interview thaty Grandfather gave. The topic is his Air Force service during the war. He was a navigator and participated in the Bikini Atoll bomb testing and the drop on Hiroshima. He talked about these things quite often, as though they were his most significant contribution to the world. And while they ARE significant, I wish I had something form when he was teaching me about Chemistry, Physics and Astronomy (He taught those subjects to high school students). As a four year old, I had the pleasure of him taking me into his school lab room and showing me chemical and physics experiments! He had me lecture to one of his classes about the moon. I have no recollection of what I said, but those students remember (I have run into a few over the years).

He also used to read to me. Mary Poppins, dinosaurs, a boon about a dalmatian fire dog, and many others. That is the voice I miss the most. His reading voice. I am fortunate to be in possession of the rocking chair that we always sat in when he was reading to me and rocking me to sleep. 🙏🏽 And the oil lamp he used to read by as a boy.

And let's not forget my two grandmother's. One quiet and encouraging. The other strong and take charge. I would give anything to have all these voices for my children to hear. And I am grateful that they still have the voices of three grandparents. And now I should think about getting those voices recorded for when my girls will need them later.

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